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I have a 14 month old daughter with my boyfriend of 4 years who has an 8 year old daughter who lives most of the time with us. I am a SAHM, which I love but right now I need a job but I have no family members that are able to care for my 1 year old. Me and my boyfriend are always stressing about money, he works and I am thankful that he provides for us. He works long hours and on weekdays comes home, takes a shower, eats dinner, and then goes to sleep. On the weekends he always says he’s bored. Our vehicle is non-driveable right now because it will not pass smog. But we have a park across the street from our home and two daughters who love going, but he never wants to go, he always says he’s too tired from work. This week we are really low on money, he promised me a set amount of money to buy winter clothes for our one year old but spent more than half of it to buy an RC plane. On top of that, my parents have been putting money into my bank account so I can go back to school in January to become a nurse, but my boyfriend borrowed all of it and still hasn’t put it back into my account. I am so angry with him! He spent our daughters clothes money to buy an RC plane! He’s taken all my school money when he knows how much it means to me to finally go back to school to get my degree so I can get a job as a nurse and help him provide for our family! Also, he wants to buy a computer with some of my school money, which I kind of need to take online classes, but I told him I’d rather spend that part on getting our car running because I need it for school, dropping off and picking up his daughter from school, and so I dont have to borrow or ask for a ride to run errands. Right now I have to use his daughters moms boyfriends car to drop off and pick up his daughter. This drives me nuts because I hate her mom and her bf. And my bf drives me crazy saying HE’S bored! When I am home EVERYDAY taking care of our daughter alone, I dont have ANY social interaction. I want a sewing machine so bad because I’m really good at sewing and I enjoy doing but I would never trade something of my daughters in order to get it. I just have a feeling he’s going to waste all of my school money and I will not be financially able to go back.

Q: Is it wrong or selfish of me to be mad at him? How should I deal with all of this? What would you do in my situation?
The 8 year old is in school.
I can’t put my daughter in daycare, I can’t pay for it.
And her mom won’t take care of her, she doesn’t care about her. She doesn’t feed her or pay attention to her. I love his daughter and would never make her live with her mother full time, only to visit.
I know it was a bad move even telling him about the account. But it is what it is and I need advice to move on and fix this.
I didn’t just GIVE him the money, he was supposed to return it all ladt week but spent most of it. And he went behind my back to get the plane.
I can’t just leave him, I have no where to go. And I can’t kick him out, he pays for this house.